Blake left for Boot camp on the 10th and let me tell you, my first day as a navy wife was no walk in the park. I was definitely good about not crying in front of Blake even though in those last moments it was really hard. We had to get up and 0400 to get him to the MEPS office by 0500 in the morning. Blake and I both didn't really sleep all night, but we both had our own reasons. He had nervous jitters and also was scared to leave me and Keira. Blake was never scared about the boot camp part, just about leaving us behind. I was obviously scared for him and what this experience would bring as well as being a single parent. What a lot of people don't understand and we try to explain is that ever since we found out we were pregnant we have been joined at the hip. We had to deal with a lot and were always facing an uphill battle together. So it was definitely weird for us to have to fight two different battles on our own and be separated. (We weren't even separated on the night befor our wedding for crying out loud) When we woke up he got in the shower and I got up and got dressed trying to be as quiet as possible because we didn't want to wake Keira up just yet. As he was getting ready we didn't talk much, but were constantly touching each other or kissing as we walked by. Blake's favorite thing to do is drag his hand across the small of my back when he walks by or kiss my forehead when I give him hugs. When we were dating he would always tell me that when he kisses me on the forehead it means he adores me in that moment. We finally got Keira up and she was a little hazy but she knew what was going on. She didn't put up a fight at all and Blake carried her to the car. The drive took all of 5 mins and we waited in the car till we saw more recruits getting dropped off and waiting in the hanger. Blake finally said he was ready to get out of the car so i drove him up to where everyone was waiting. He gave Keira a kiss and said he loved her and then gave me a big kiss and said I love you. Before I knew it he was out of the car and I was turning on to the street. I made it all the way to Balboa before I started to cry. I was waiting for that feeling all week but it never happened, but I was also so glad it didn't happen in front of Blake. We got back to the apartment and Keira went right back to sleep and I stayed up till 8am processing everything and wondering if he was going to call me because he forgot something. I took a nap for 2 hours, which brought my total to 4 hours of sleep. Keira was being really sweet to me and checking on me. Telling me it would be okay because Daddy said he loved us and would come back to us. She then told me daddy would come back to fix my heart. Such a sweetheart. I spent the rest of the day watching tv with keira and not really accomplishing much. I just needed to be sad for the day. I clung on to my phone for dear life waiting for his first phone call home, but I would just end up going to bed a 5am disappointed. I then woke up at 8am(we are now at 8 hours of sleep for 2 days) feeling very numb. I cried and was sad for a whole day but i couldn't do that anymore, so I was trying to find something to do to keep busy all while clinging to my phone all day waiting for that phone call. I didn't care if I was going to have to be attached to that phone for 3 weeks, I wasn't going to miss his first phone call home. Well it came at 640 on the dot. I answered the phone quickly (because I did that every time it rang) and when I said Hello I heard a slight laugh and a, "Hi hunny". If i could jump over the moon with excitement and happiness I would have done it twice over. He told me all of his info, let me know he wouldn't be able to call again until 3 weeks, but I would get a letter within 3 weeks max. His civilian stuff will be shipped to me and I will get it in 2 weeks. Blake wanted to talk to Keira since he only got 2 mins, so i woke her up so he could say hi and say how much he missed her. When I finally got the phone back we got to exchange I love yous and goodbyes. Blake is always amazing in situations that are hard on both of us. He knew exactly what to say to me so that I wouldnt get sad or cry on the phone. He sounded a little sad and I know it is because he misses us, but more then anything that boy needed to go lay down. I haven't heard him sound that tired since Keira was born. (and that is saying something for anyone who really knows Blake). I cant wait to hear from him again. I love him soo much and it is amazing what joy a 1min phone call could bring(it was actually 57seconds. He got a max of 2mins but he wasnt going to push it that far and get cut off without saying goodbye and i love you). Just hearing his voice calmed me down. Thankfully I'm going to be busy these next 2 weeks so I wont be waiting pathetically next to the mailbox everyday. I'm also keeping a journal for him and everyday I write in it how I'm feeling, what Keira is doing, how i miss and love him, and anything else that goes one. I know I would never get to say it all in the letters, so this way he will get to read it when he is at school and not feel like he missed a whole lot. Well I think I blabbed a whole lot so I will stop for now.
xoxo
